While I took the train after school, there was this kid and his mother. It led me to thinking about my childhood, and most importantly, mother's love. As a child of my mother, I would not have been where I'm today if not for the love my mother had been showering me all this years. I looked at the child and see his mother teaching him all sorts of things. Then, I realize that I will one day lose her. I should really do something to show my appreciation to my parents instead of saying thanks to them without actions, more significance.

However, the life I'm leading right now is really pessimistic and I've no idea why, but I know its not one of the ways to show my appreciation. Looking at friends who are worrying for the placement to get into higher tertiary education, I've no idea what I can achieve in the near future if my life continues like this. But I can't find motivation in life. I've looked up for resources on how I can enhance the quality of life and also at the same time not increasing expenditures. No aim in life, how? Seeing people aiming and seeking to earn big bucks in the future, I am still not motivated because I really have nothing else that I want, except for a carefree life. All the chunks are like bullshit. The world is always changing, people as well, and they're really too fast for me to catch up. Sometimes, I just feel like leaving this world, I'm not even significant in anyone's life at all, and I do not think that there would be anyone tearing for me, that's how bad.

But how bad I described life, it just go on, and on..